Pain bleeds

Pain bleeds a color that I will try and call red. The blood that is shed. When my head feels like it's been hit by a ton of bricks. Make that 10,000 x 10,010. If numbness isn't the answer, im screeching for this to be made better. Why would it hurt so much? I don't understand? Hearts being broken is a crushing blow, but it had nothing to do with me I know. So go, on marching on, it'll be alright, I feel as if I've been left to die. When will this be over, I wonder, I yearn, I desperately want this to end, but the pain of yesterday is left with nothing unsaid. She speaks to me, from days of old, when I brushed everything aside only to be told. What's real is not and what isn't is, how I truly begin again? A smashing pain on the inside of my brain, my neurons spin like crazy and emotional pain is definitely real, yet how exactly do my neurons convey the message of a broken heart, and how would they know that anyway? When your heart has been pierced, and left to bleed, I'm sure you are thinkin of everything but me. I can't pick up your anger because it's hurting me, so i will try and do my best to move on willingly. Give me dreams to dream again, give me visions to love again, because this can't possibly be the end. My imagination wants something greater. Loving to want to live is fair. Give me dreams and visions again, take allt hat have, because there's nothing left in here. What's mine is yours and better tomorrows are around every corner, I know there is an end to sorrows. My eyes hurt from seeing life, my skin hurts from feeling alive, my heart weighs heavy, from all of the strife, bring an end to it now, how long does a heart have to heal, and why do i allow myself to let you have a piece of my heart, when devastation can be so real? To truly love and trust again is my heart's desire, I dare to run, Lord if this is your fire, it has burned and singed me, and I dont want to be a liar. A follower has to give you their all and if that means im a teary eyed mess, screeching out from the pain then take me higher, then I've ever been because its you that I desire. Only bring me soothing relief and if it never comes, pain has got to be brief. Take my life and make it what you want it to be, I have nothing to lose I give you everything. --ar