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let us be honest. I am not in a place where I used to be. I am in transition. Transition of making new changes, transition of not knowing where I am going. Pefectly in God's will eh? It seems that's how He works. Takes us to places we don't know that we are going to. I also know that I can trust where He is taking me. There are some things that I need to give up, but want to do it out of honesty, not falsely, not falsely telling Him, take this thing from me and taking it back or holding on to it. I also want to do things because I know He wants me to love myself and that is part of His will. If I am doing something to please those around me, I don't quite think that is so genuine also. Help me love me Lord like you do. Help me want to want to love me like you do. Help me know that only through your divine intervention can you really assist me. When I am weak He is strong. Not everything I do is beneficial to me as well. I may be free to do what I like but that does not mean it is going to help me. It seems sometimes that through pain do I truly grow. And not necessarily that I have to make things hard for myself but through the hard times which are painful and where He wants me to die to self, those painful times, I experience growth through. And let us say that the moment I said yes to God, the lessons were allowed to happen in my life. The lessons of learning I don't get what I want all the time when I think I should have it. That God is soverign and does what He likes when He sees fit to do so. And I cannot change that. I can petition Him and ask Him, yet if it is not time then it is not time. This is a time to fulfill the dreams and visions that He has given to me. The dreams of what I want to do for Him. This is a time to become whole and that takes work. Not necessarily that I am driving myself to do something I do not want to, but the work of action. Faith without works is dead, taking steps to do things I have never done before. To get out of my confort zone and trust Him. Everything happens for a reason. He's got a reason around every corner of questionability. He's got a reason around every corner of that which does not make sense. Of that which I cannot puzzle piece together through my finite mind. He sees in full, I see only in part. Help me trust you more sweet God! For you are my only hope and the only one who can lift me out of my distresses. Lift me out the snare that so easily entangles me and set me free, for I desire you and you alone. Amen,let it be.