To know Him, to Really Know Him

As this new year began, I was left with the impression upon my spirit that i dont really know him. I know what ive learned up intil now but I DONT REALLY KNOW HIM, especially in all of His fullness, in this lifetime i will spend my life spending time just getting to know Him. I really know Him nought! Who are you? Who is this Jesus i asked? Lord, who are You? Who is this God who loves my soul. Just who is this Jesus who died on the cross? Who is He? I feel like going around and just asking everyone i see, normally i would ask , do you know Jesus? i just feel like asking, who is this Jesus? Who is He? Ive got to know this Jesus. This Christ. IVE GOT TO KNOW HIM AND IVE GOT TO KNOW HIM NOW! i ask Him to show me how to know Him. Lord, how do i get to know you? How do i get to be with you like those people did back in the word did? If i look at the scripture I will see that they were ALWAYS with Him. They just followed Him. Everywhere He went. Aha, when they werent even asking, when they werent even seeking, He comes down from heaven, being fully God, yet being fully man, and He comes and doesnt even say a word but lives out before us. He put aside His divinity, not even coming in a way that says look at me and lives life on earth. The perfect life of a submitted life to the will of God. He became like me so that I could become like Him. I say to Him, Lord terrify me with Your presence and when He answered me , i found that i didnt really know Him. What I thought i knew, up until now, makes me want to search Him out. To have Him show me another side of Him. A side that is dazzling. He is showing me His dazzling side. This is just the beginning, but this year shall enfold Him showing more of Him. The sides of Jesus i do not know at all. How mystified I was to know that I do not know all the sides of Jesus. For He is multidimensional. Wow, thats that kind of God I want to serve! Thats the God i want to know! The God of the nations. Let me see that side. The side of the all knowing Jesus thats what i want to know! The side that knows every hearts cry and every prayer that goes up into heaven. The side that can be everywhere. I run to the cross, and say Lord let me die, let me die to whatever because its the resurrection I want and without a resurrection you cannot have that. I am spending my time with the Father getting to Know Him. To learn His likes and dislikes, what His tastes are, the things He likes to do. The things that bring Him joy. His freakin ways which are much higher than mine! I dont know about you, but i am not satisified with what i know, i am not satisfied with my ways, i want the higher ways, the ways that surpass my finite mind. If Hed dare to expand my mine, id say Lord have your way. Flip my world upside down, i dare to even pray that, yes you saw me, im daring to even pray that. Out of the mosty ugliest on earth, He shows me His beauty. The places people dare to even look, there you will find His beauty. The places youd least expect Him to be, there you will find His beauty. Out of the mouths youd think would even speak, there you will find His beauty. In a mess, beauty can be found. Only out of distress and affliction can His beauty come out. His power comes out. Only when it seems impossible, there His power comes forth. How could He even show Himself powerful without the messes, without the famines, without the afflictions, without the diseases, without the wars, without our messed up sinful lives? Without brokenness, the beauty of Christ cannot be shown forth. His loving touch cannot touch you, if you feel that you have all of the comfort in the world. theres nothing that can comfort me like He does. Out of my brokenness comes His comfort. His sweet comfort. Nothing can give His comfort like He does. Hes made Himself to be the only one. He made us with a piece in us that was created for All of Him. When He designed me it was to have Him living in me. O how i feel that need for Him when going through my afflictions. Come and fill what only You created me to have filled by You and You alone Lord i cry out. My spirit is waiting, my soul crys out for You. You created me with a God cry, and its voice You know very well, You know which tears are crying out for You and You alone. Do you appreciate those tears more than the others or are they all equal to You, You who knows all things?