Save you now

you showed me a side of you
I dared to see
I jumped fully in
without even thinking
seems to have got me on a path
of bewilderment
He used my greatest sin to
lead me to you
for you to have a glimpse in?
im mystified at His ways
but what I am learning is that
I am not in control
even when I think i am
I really am not
I cannot control the people He brings into my
life
or how long they will stay at times
I tried to have a little
fun but didn't know that he would be the one
the one who caught my gaze
who sent my heart into tizzies
making my head completely dizzy
with each rejection
with each one who chooses not to
glance my way
i only become more inspired
to become my greatest
to not wait one minute
any longer for life to pass me by
while i sit on the sidelines
just watch where I will
be a year from now
completely changed
c ompletely renewed
comletely restored
who would have known?
His beauty has definitely been shown?
I am not afraid
although i may have bared
a bit of my soul
the tears i cried were
enough for you to taste
its no fun to see you flirt
with God who knows
I know i deserve better
do you dare to speak to me
now that i know about her?
do i dare to even give you the time
of day
i dont even walk around
flirting with any man
i dont even care to
a man isnt what i need
a man isnt what i want
i only want continual fellowship
with the one that made me
thats all i want
and with that i will be
ever so completely happy
so sue me
if i enjoy to kiss his feet
to sit at his feet
so sue me
why dont you
what do i have to lose
and what do i have to give to you?
who knows
who cares
it makes no difference whether
you want to come after me or not
stay where you are
you know i will come running
what am i supposed to do
act like this is all cool dont worry
i will not hesitate to tell you--ar