Jesus was perfect

I have realized that seeking a relationship with another person to change how I feel about myself, is almost like seeking a drug. To be intoxicated and not think of myself, while I am with the other person. But I can today make changes to seek after my Higher power to assist me with looking at myself in a healthy way and making necessary changes to my life. If I am seeking another person to change how I feel about myself then I obviously am not ready for a relationship. A relationship is not about getting but giving. I have learned that I need to take care of myself first, if I cannot take care of myself then I cannot take care of anyone else. My serenity, my sobriety, my spirituality comes first. As I learn to love myself and to get rid of all unrealistic expectations then I can learn to live and love myself. If God loves me regardless of my socio economic status, regardless of whether I am single or not, regardless of how much money I have in the bank, regardless if I am a Martha Steward lookalike then I can love good ole April too. If I stop placing unrealistic expectations on myself then maybe I can learn to like me. If I can stop thinking I have to beat a timeclock and get a college degree by tomorrow then maye I can like me. If I can stop thinking I have to be a perfect mother then I can love me. If I can stop thinking that I have to be perfect in all that I do, come on. Learn to let go a little. There's no one to measure up to. I will get the college degree when I get the college degree. I am going to let go of all the pressure to do so much. I am only one person, I can only do so much. I am going to let go of trying to be the perfect mother and instill that on my child. I don't want him to be a perfectionist growing up. Jesus will accept me into heaven regardless of these things, He will accept me into heaven because He died for my sins and paid the price for my sins. I am valuable to Him. And it is not because of anything that I did. Healing is not anything that I do. It is because of Him and what He did on a cross. His death on the cross, purchased my freedom. His death on the cross and His resurrection, buried the power of sin. It no longer has dominion over me. Sin can no longer hold me down. I can get a little grace for my weaknesses. Today I do not have to be perfect before Him.