Church

Arrrgh I want to scream. Worship is more than just giving God praise....it's entering His gates with thanskgiving and His courts with praise to stand in awe of Him and fall and worship Him and adore Him. Adoration. I can't stand churches that just expect you to be completely peppy all of the time, anyone can be peppy, but not everyone can adore. I long for adoration to break forth, it's more than just words. It doesn't even matter if anyone is jumping around or not, it's about Him and worshipping Him in your heart. Worship is more than just a song, it's a lifestyle, it's a heart attitude. How can people sing songs about being free to run and dance when they've got everyone barricaded in theater seating? I guess I have to go in the front where there's room. It was so funny, I sat in a row by the door this morning and all the people who were streaming in late were standing right walking and pausing right in front of me as if me worshipping was nothing. I silently closed my eyes and just focused on God and felt Him there with me and felt love for these people who just don't know any better. I mean if I saw someone worshipping I wouldn't stand right in front of them, I'd respect that they were worshipping and move on my way. But perhaps they don't know how to worship you God. I feel like I'm having to move past a lot of people and their acts of unlovliness. It's like if they don't know what manners are, or what they should do. If they are old timers in a church they should make people feel welcome. It's almost as if they act just like the world would, there are people I know that act very nice and courteous, more than people do in a church. It's crazy, but I feel more comfortable around people who are in this world because for the most part they are consistent, even if they are rude sometimes, then people in the church, because theres so much inconsistency, you never know if someone is going to choose to extend love in the church or not. And that's pretty sad, but I trust that God knows what He is doing, and He sees all things, and He will take care of those people when they act cold and unloving and rude. In whatever way that is that He brings correction. I can't hold on to it, I just have to trust Him.